As you might know I have been doing a 52 weeks project for a while now. The past few weeks I have been struggling with a lack of creativity and inspiration. Usually I just come up with some ideas while I am shooting, but right now I just feel empty. Therefore I decided to return to some older concept and try some new editing techniques.
This is one of the pictures that I wish I would not have taken. The only thing I like about it are the colours. But I cannot point a finger on what exactly bothers me. When I look at my newer work I feel very uneasy, as if something was totally wrong about the pictures.
This picture I am actually very proud of. It pictures my state of mind perfectly (hibernation). A dreaming state.
There is one thing that all the images I dislike have in common: I cannot relate to their message. It may sound weird, because I created them myself, but I do not always create with a purpose. Some of my images are the result of random impulses without any purpose or reason at all.
Therefore I decided to write short text first, and then create something that fits the topic. It actually helped a lot.
Sometimes we can feel trapped in solitude and silence. It is as if the world is set on mute and we are not really a part of it. Our own feelings can be overwhelming, and we shut out everything else. We see no reason for happiness and our actions seem to have no positive impact at all. The fear of failure makes us blind to the beauty in this world. We feel as if we are just a raindrop falling on the endless sea that disappears in the mass and becomes totally meaningless. We wish to gain attention, but it just feels as if every word and action is a total failure. Maybe you are insecure. You are so afraid of saying something wrong, so you say nothing at all. But you are not made without value. Even if your actions are just a drop of water falling on the sea, it leaves an impact. The ripples of every move you take will stir up the sea, if you just don’t give up. Yes, you will fail at some points, and not everything you say is right. But that is totally okay, as long as you don’t quit talking at all. Because if you do not say anything at all, no one will be able to tell you that you are wrong. You are valued and loved beyond limits. It may not always be visible, but if you keep your eyes open, you may see all the hints of love in this world.